Your Grace
I've sung the song hundreds of times, "Your grace is enough/Your grace is enough/Your grace is enough for me". Sometimes it was merely a song with familiar phrases projected onto a screen. At more emotional times, I felt the light appreciation of His grace upon me while I worshipped.
The full force of grace did not appear to me until His grace, the same grace that I've been singing about, did not seem to be enough. Although I knew that my repentance and earnest remorsefulness would yield me a pardon, my own judgement of myself seemed to weigh greater than my Creator's. I unconsciously sought human approval more greatly than divine acceptance. So after all, it turns out that His grace wasn't enough.
The disparity between what I was singing and my actions was a challenge of my validity as a believer. I know that our belief in Jesus Christ and his sacrifice for us makes me a Christian -- but I also know that faith is dead without works. I have lived most of the previous 2 years trailing behind the first part of the statement, that my conviction of His existence solely earns me the title as a follower.
My mistake in this faulty belief has given me a fair amount of unwanted consequences, some more severe than others. Many decisions made during this time period have been ill-gained full of remorseful results. Regardless, I've learned now. I cannot say that my desire for human approval is non-existent, nor that God's forgiveness can make me feel 100% whole, but at least I know that His grace SHOULD be enough to do those things... may this be the foothold on which I build my righteousness.
Thank you for your grace and may your grace be enough.
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